complex

i hate losing

Apology

what you need to know:
generally known as Matthew Yap (math*yoo*yap)
age eighteen
birthday first of feb
google thirteenmattyap@gmail.com
chained to somebody back home
writes ... unfortunately.
can say the alphabet backwards because it takes skill
plays the bass and piano

things to do/be in the future:
a leader of a terrorist group
a don of the first ever classy filipino mafia
a superhero because I just want superpowers
old because it would be really disturbing if i wouldn't be.
unlock the secrets of the universe wanna bet?
jump off the building and survive
find my own you-know-what Because the first one didn't work out as much.
Layout: lyricaltragedy
Pattern: tillyness

Jealousy is the strongest, yet most irrational and unnecessary human emotion a person can feel. And for a freak like me, it rubs me in the wrongest way. Comes will all kinds of bullshit. I happen to be angry that she chose a dumbass like him to prom. I'm regretful for not asking her in the first place. And i feel sorry for myself that i didnt even have the balls to tell her. How pathetic is that?

I'm okay with this, i've always been okay about everything. Its all a matter of accepting my life as an anti-social loser. Like i said, she'll pass just like everyone else. i'd like to think this is all just a phase, preparing me for a cold, hard life of..uhh, well i think of something.

i have never loved the taste of bourbon like when i'm all depressed. It spells class.

Ugh, i need a break from everyone.